Remembering What Used To Be Good

I was rummaging through some files to look for a bill when I came across this file. Can you guess what's inside?


It may look like another ordinary red file to you, but for me, it contains memories so precious, I would never trade it for the world. What I found inside the file, made me smile widely like a mad person.

Have I ever told you that Aien is a very organized person, more organized than me? Anyway, while I was busy looking for the bill, I actually found out that he actually kept ALL the cards I gave to him back when we were *ehems* jiwang-jiwang back then, neatly in a file.

(some of the cards that I took out for illustration purpose :P)

And when I say ALL, I literally meant ALL – together with the wrapping paper, neatly folded and kept in the file.


However, among all cards, this is the card I loved the most.


Why? Because it is 100% handmade and made with love (eceh!) by the none other, yours truly. :) Oh I remember sketching the image of the card on a paper before it was put to "live". I remember driving to the art shop to get the things needed to make the card. I remember sleeping late at night and sewing the card (yes I sew on the card!) because I was running out of time and the card needed to be ready on the next day – his birthday. I remember my roommate telling me I should not be wasting my time making a card and that I should just get him a card from a shop instead. I remember not listening to her. Because he is special, and I wanted to do something special for him.

And then, there was this red box. Can you guess what it is?


It is actually a mini post box which comes with mini "love letters" that I made myself during the first few weeks that Aien and I became an item.


Reading back all the notes, letters, and cards I wrote to Aien, made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Geli pon ade jugak. I can't believe I was that jiwang back then okay. :P

But then again, why did I stop being all jiwang? Why did I stop giving him cards, shower him with gifts and flatter him with the flowery words (even A. Samad Said pon kalah ok) that I used to do a lot back then? What happened to the simple calls and texts, just to say "i miss you" or "i love you" when his day is a little gloomy? What happened to all the effort to make cute little crafts just to show how important he is to me and brighten up his day?

When I read back all the things I wrote to Aien back then, it was full of sweet promises, hopes and expectations. However, I realize now that sadly, some of the sweet promises I made were not fulfilled and I definitely owe it to him after all he's done for me.

It's true. Sometimes, it is these little things that remind us the good times we had, and why we are where we are today, and what we should do, to keep our loved ones closer to us, everyday.

We need to remember what used to be good.

Shake Shake, Shake Your Head!

At 8 months plus, Aydein is able to do a lot of things that never fail to amaze me.

Like recently, he surprised me by shaking his head left and right when we say no and shaking our heads, as though trying to imitate us!



Note : Don't mind the background voices. They are annoying, I know.

Mama's Little Soldier

I am a happy mom today! Patience definitely paid off as Aydein finally met another milestone last night – creeping!

It was only a few days back that I read an excerpt from Baby Centre that by this week, babies at Aydein's age should now be able to rock back and forth in the attempt to creep or crawl.

And although I know there are many babies around his age that have long started to creep and crawl, I also know that it is important to never compare our babies to others, and savor every moment while letting them grow at their own pace. After all, every baby is unique, right? :)



This clip brings smiles to my face every time I play it. There is this part where I pulled my watch further when he almost grasped it, and when I did, he lifted his head and went like, aik?!

Notice how he is so determined to get the watch, (yes he is very attracted to shiny things), sampai terangkat2 kaki!

Hehe. He looks so much like a soldier bellying through the bushes, no? :P

Baby Dino Meets Baby Firas

Guess whose tail is this?


Heee. Yes, you are definitely right. Mine! Me me me. And you can call me baby dino. Aydein the baby dino. :D


Oh recently, I was brought to meet my newborn friend, baby Firas. He was so small, you see, I felt like a giant dino beside him. Chomp chomp chomp! Rawrrrr!


But he was also so very adorable lah! I wanted to say hello and play with him, but his eyes were closed all the time.


I inched a little closer and tried to wake him up, but before I could even do that, mama quickly pulled me away and took me away from him. Haih ape lah mama ni.


You see, baby Firas is Uncle Syukran & Aunty Munira's first son. They were both mamas' good friends. Mama used to go to the same school with them. Can you spot mama and Uncle Syukran?


Mama was also there on Uncle Syukran's wedding day. Oh the good old times, as mama would say. :)


And now, Uncle Syukran is now happily married with a kid! How time flies!


I can't wait for baby Firas to grow up so I can play football with him! Oh wait, scratch that. Maybe I should ask if he would like to play wrestling with me instead. Heh heh heh.

To Baby Ammar's Aid

Tears welled up in my eyes as soon as I finished reading Nuffnang's special featured entry on a toddler named Ammar.


See the lovable, adorable, normal-looking toddler in the picture above? One look at this cheerful little toddler, no one would have guessed that this toddler has been struggling with a heart condition since birth.

As of now, this adorable, innocent little fellow is patiently waiting for 22nd February 2010 where he will be taken to an operation theatre for a heart surgery.

FYI, Ammar is a 2-year-old toddler who has been suffering with Patent Ductus Arteriosus (PDA) since birth. According to Nuffnang, he has a hole in his heart which results in oxygenated blood and non-oxygenated blood mixing together, which in turn puts a lot of strain on his heart and lung arteries. I think it is better known as jantung berlubang in Malay.

It seems that in some cases, the hole eventually seals itself up after some time, but that wasn't the case for Ammar as doctors mutually agreed that he should undergo a surgery to prevent the situation from getting worse.

Hospital is his second home. Going in and out of ward becomes a routine for this poor family. You can check out this blog entry written by his mom, Azmaniza, who blogs at http://mylife-asz.blogspot.com, to read more about Baby Ammar's condition and how she, a mother of five children, brave through this God's greatest challenge.

Honestly, I can't imagine myself being in her shoes. I can't imagine what I would do if it were to happen to me, or to Aydein. I can't even imagine how it must be like for the little toddler to have to breathe through breathing aids ...


and eat through gastro tubes, at a very tender age!


With that being said, I urge ALL of you; If you have some time or love to spare, please help this innocent little boy, who may not even have any idea of how serious this condition could be for him. It is obvious that he is oblivious about this, because he could still offer a smile at times like this even when he's obviously ill. Sighs.


Please help to spread this word around. Donations can be made to Azmaniza Mohamad Kamal – 514093114912 (Maybank). Every little bit helps, so please do contribute any amount you can.

Again, baby Ammar's surgery is scheduled for 22 February 2010, and the fund-raising effort will end on midnight at 17 February 2010. It is indeed a short period of time, but let us all rise to the occasion and prove to everyone the strength of a blogging community like ours.

Remember, today might be her day. We never know when it could happen to us. :(

To baby Ammar, get well soon, baby Ammar love! To his family, be strong and keep praying. Insyaallah this misery will soon come to an end and replaced with a happy ending soon, insyaallah.

Before & After

Britney Spears used to be like this..


And now she's like this.


On the other side of the world, Thara Sofian used to be like this..


And now she's like this..


But she desperately needs to be like this!

Is there hope?

What You Can Do, I Can Do Too! (Part 4)

Oh goodie! At last, after what feels like eternity, mama finally allows me to touch her notebook! Oh, did you know that I just turned 8-month recently? Mama said I'm a big boy now. That is why I can do a few thing more as compared to before.

If a few weeks back, I was still a wobbly and unbalanced little baby when I sit, but at 8 months, I can now sit unsupported steadily on a flat surface. I am so loving my new ability because this way, I get to turn left and right, left and right, ALL that I want.


I get to lift and toss the objects around me freely and I am also showing signs to lunge forward and creep from my sitting position too. So hopefully this new milestone would stop mama's worries when I start crawling soon. :)


I can also hold my bottle all by myself. It makes mama happy, because that way, her arms won't ache so much while waiting for me to finish the 5oz – 6oz of milk everytime.


Oh and of course, my gleaming white teeth. I do not know why, but my teeth seem to grow very quickly. You see, over the last few weeks since my last entry, another 2 teeth sprouted on my top gum, making my teeth a total of 6 gleaming pearls altogether now.


Not sure how true this myth is, but I heard that if a baby's teeth develop fast, the baby is said to be slow at walking. Is this true? I don't know lah. But I sure hope not! Cause I can't wait to join my elder cousins to run around the field!

Well, that's all for me so far. Mama is giving me cues to hand her notebook back to her. Oh I cant wait to tell you what I can do next! Until the next milestone from me!



Love love,

- Aydein